I spoke with a friend last night that I hadn’t talked to in at least a few months. I had seen on Facebook that she had started a new job. It was late so I asked her in a quick message on Facebook if I could call her. She said yes. 🙂
I called her and asked her about her new job. She shared how she likes it a lot better than her last one. I was happy to hear that she’s finally found a place she likes. After sharing with me about her work she asked me how I had been doing.
She is the 3rd friend I’ve told about my depression and that I’ve contemplated suicide in the last few months. I have already given my word to my doctor and my boyfriend that I won’t harm myself. My friend asked me to promise her that I wouldn’t. I promised that I wouldn’t harm myself.
Sometimes I’d rather not tell anyone what goes through my head. I have a lot of crazy things that go through it. I’m sure others have their own craziness that go through their own heads. I just don’t always feel like others would want to listen. I know I don’t need to share everything. That would be a bit codependent. But when things get to a point where my life isn’t working, I get to share to be healthy. I get to trust people with what is on my heart. People that love me and are committed to me. I’ve seen evidence from a lot of people that they are committed to me and that they love me. I’m thankful for those people.